Just back from a funeral not long ago, my auntie (not very close to me) passed away few days back.. Very sudden, thanks to the doctor that convince her husband to do the surgery claiming 95% success rate and end up koma result in death eventually.. It was an impact to her husband and childrens..
She was cremated at the same place where HIM was cremated too last time.. Yes.. Him.. You guys should know who am I talking about.. Our dear friend Calvin who left us 2 years back.. I walk into the place where they put my auntie’s coffin everybody waiting for the ceremony begin.. I choose a seat with my mum and I sat down.. Looking at the seat where I sit 2 years ago during his funeral.. Its like a flashback, the almost same looking coffin on the same place.. The difference is the people sleeping inside, the picture and my seats.. It reminds me about him.. I always wonder why God so damn cruel and take away his life so fucking early.. Althou Harry tell me its lifecycle but it doesnt explain it.. If everything also u say lifecycle, fuck it la.. The answer doesnt sound like one lo.. For me, Lifecycle = BullShit.. But somehow it might be the best “answer” to comfort yourself when something bad happened.. It just doesnt work on me haha.. Last year something terrible happened and Harry told me its Lifecycle thing ask me to take it easy, let go and forgive.. Until now I cant do that, a lot people try to directly or indirectly to influence me to let go.. Some even try to sing that song by raymond lam, fong sao~ fong hoi so yao~ thanks for u people’s kind but I just cant do that, not at this moment at least..
I will tell you, it doesnt happen to you so you don’t know the pain, you can tell me there are lots of different people in this world and some is just weird so just accept it.. Some say, its hard to meet each other among so many human in this world therefore appreciate those around you.. I agree with the last sentence but if the people doesn’t appreciate you as friend first, why should you do the same? I’m not monk nor saint who can let go and forgive easily.. Thats not Cyrus.. U can say I “siu hei” “small gas” or what ever.. I will just accept that xD
Added: Why I suddenly talk till so far ler? haha.. Jz wanna say something that always try to influence(persuade) me to fix the problem.. I understand what are you guys trying to do and it happen to me in another situation too haha! But I just couldn’t do it now =)
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yes why would you appreciate a friend when they don't? just dont give a damn for them. after so many ups and downs, you have grown up. =)
February 21, 2009 at 6:49 PMin the next few years time, you are going to regret for what you have not done than did. Be a man, do the right thing. =) cheer up bro.
i wonder siapa tu yang remove comment? hmm
February 21, 2009 at 6:55 PMSomehow I think, in the next few years, few 10 years 20 years.. I wont regret for this decision I've made.. Not this decision at least =)
don't worry, no matter what decision you made, i'll support you all the way, even it's a wrong decision!
February 21, 2009 at 8:10 PMI totally agree and understand to your situation!
in my opinion, if someone or may be myself suddenly pass away, why so sad during my funeral nor after i pass away? why don't we appreciate each other when we still alives? I saw many people very appreciate a friends or relative who passed away, but why not we appreciate each other before that?
February 21, 2009 at 8:32 PManyway, the comment above came by from my heart... probably out of topic ba ><
讲明 is comment ma.. Good or bad.. Related or not oso I accept geh.. As long as u're not nonsense like cipong bu den can d lol~
February 21, 2009 at 9:02 PMso.. Alvin u r saying my decision wrong oso lar? lol~ Kee.. y u put "my funeral"?! COI! U are so healthy asking me dota everyday~
February 21, 2009 at 9:07 PMHOHOHO..... lifecycle it is, in term of Buddhism believe that early death is a blessing as well as great deal of good deed done in the past life. Speaking of which, "rather than long pain it is better to have short pain" . well sorry to hear that but look on the bright side, death is just the beginning of another lifecycle.
February 21, 2009 at 9:14 PMah loon.. u are very "zhen" nowadays lol~
February 21, 2009 at 9:22 PMnothing right or wrong, if your situation came to me, i would probably do the same thing. =)
February 21, 2009 at 9:42 PMOne thing i very agree wif u here is "appreciate all the thing we having", for me whatever situation or relation is both sided geh,if only one side will care or contribute and appreciate,this nt called a relationship and we no nid to regret when it gone as well..
February 22, 2009 at 12:56 AMwell...u did have ur reason for making some decision...everyone did...
February 22, 2009 at 3:40 AMbut i bet u probably know wat happens when u make such decision...
NO MATTER its stupid or good decision(I din specified it on either way)
as long as u r responsible for it, everything is fine...
there is lots of ppl that do not responsible for wat they had done...
running away from responsibility and facts tat they were wrong...
i respect u for taking up the responsibility...
and respect u for posting something tat clearly define that u know tat things u had done MIGHT be wrong...
u were kinda po ma sometimes...
but i do heart u as my friend...
keep on going my friend...i'll be waiting u in the future...
when u can join the GREAT me....xD
oohh..yalo yalo
February 22, 2009 at 7:57 AMit is time for winter to tell u "old" ppl her philosophy~
February 22, 2009 at 11:46 AMget ready~
erhem~
actually...
i just wanna comment for fun... xP don particularly have anything 2 say~ no point persuading when u have made up ur mind~ just don dwell in d past much~ it makes u seems old~ haha!
ah ming very oi! The great Ming! lol~
February 22, 2009 at 2:23 PMwinter is pure "lai luan" "来乱" one =.=
kpop lagi mou liu, i rather u not comment =.= first time my post got so many comments.. thanks everyone~
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